I lost my marinade in a sea of confusion. 

I'm not sure what is wrong with me. I think I might be suffering from the worst kind of hangover ever. and it's not the type that a large handle of rum causes. Although I do know that type of hangover pretty well.

After the holidays, and after finally moving into a new house I feel pretty uninspired. All of these things I had in my head that where marinating and waiting to be spilled out into a creative hot stew waiting to be pushed out to all who would love to experience it... just got lost in a sea of confusion. 

I feel like I'm just grasping at anything and everything right now and coming up empty handed. 

I know it is up to me to fix this. and perhaps this is just part of the process, of growing and evolving. You can not grow if you don't fail. If you're having one success after another you are not living up to the potential you have. 

Success feels good, growing pains and change are uncomfortable.  

I'm working on a bunch of things to remedy my current situation. I need to feel inspired but inspiration isn't something that always comes easy. For me it's a huge thought process, it's the foundation of creativity. It's the DNA building blocks, it's that shot of espresso, that psychedelic tea, that craft beer, that secret ingredient in your marinade, that one little switch that turns the light on in your head.

So what's my plan? It's everything and anything. It's to just keep going,  pushing through. Looking, seeing, doing, trying, creating, sketching, writing, cooking, conversing, being curious about everything and anything. Trying new things, listening to different points of view. Putting my hands everywhere, Opening my mind a bit wider, stretching, walking, and whatever floats my boat.

So here is a list of things I have compiled. 

• Write down the things that inspire me 
• Read 
• Write and Blog
• Sketch - keep a sketch book
• Unpack my Art Studio and get settled in
• Get together with creative people and have conversations
• Cook, Create a recipe, 
• Write everything I can down
• Share and ask for comments and constructive critiques
• Push away my negative thoughts and self doubt to give way to positivity and confidence
• Hang up Art in my house from me and the people that inspire me.
• Network within the art and digital media communities in my area. 
• Experiment 
• Keep an Art Journal

So I am planning on using this blog to keep track of it all and to communicate with others and hopefully get some feed back. If nothing else it will keep me from falling off a cliff and back into a sea of confusion. 

Lets see where this is headed.